Planning

Planning is hard.  Rather, until you make it a habit, planning is hard.

I like to be in control.  I am always shocked how easily I fall out of control.  I have all the tools to make good choices and follow through with good plans!  Why is it so easy to take the lazy way out?
I never feel good being a couch potato or stuffing myself with empty slider foods.  I have really had to examine why I just don't do what I know I need to do when I am not doing it....

Since September 27th I have looked deep inside myself and find my mojo again.  Spending too much time trying to figure out what went wrong in the past does nothing for a present day situation.  I just let it go.  By letting it go, I acknowledged that I did the bad things to myself! Yes, I did this to myself. Any excuses needed to be trashed and forgotten, they wouldn't work moving forward.  At least that was what got me going.  Now, nearly a month behind me, I can attest to the success I have had so far with really changing my attitude about EVERYTHING.

Looking at a revision (read: actually succumbing to ANOTHER surgery) is kind of crazy.  I needed to go through this process of recertification for insurance approval to realize that I had a tool already and it is in my head, not my stomach.  The sleeve may be a little stretched, but doing all the things that I have been doing for the last month are all the things that I would have to do with a revision surgery eventually....  I could end up in the same situation if I wasn't truly compliant again!

I have had a great weekend and never once felt "de-railed".  I took care of my body by starting out the weekend with a great swim (a tough thing for me to feel confident with) and gave my body a day of rest on Saturday.  I started the week out yesterday morning with a great spin class with an instructor that pushed us and encouraged us all the ride.  I even incorporated some adult beverages (Michelob Ultra) on Friday and on Sunday actually took 2 of the elder children out to celebrate their birthdays at Texas de Brazil!!!  I ate from the salad bar and had a good helping of lean meat.  While the 4 others I dined with felt bloated and ready to pass out.  I actually felt great!  The best thing was this morning on the scale when I was down a pound and totaling my loss since I started my reset to 15!